Time now for a little update. It's been eleven weeks - a whole term - since I decided to make some changes and embarked on my exercise programme, started meditating, and changed my diet. The exercise programme has been great, though at the cost of my crafting which I rather miss. I enjoy my classes, am definitely heaps stronger and fitter than at the beginning of term, though my "pregnant tummy" is only ever so slightly diminished - I definitely have a way to go in that department. The nicest thing has been rediscovering how to move and use my body like I could before I got pregnant. Again I'm not "there" yet but am inspired to keep going. I've had a swim just about every week, done my flying trapeze classes, done my tumbling classes or practiced hula hoops depending on whether I was teaching that week or not, and done bits of other things like riding my scooter. I dropped out of dance - it was too late and stressed me out too much.
I have followed through and meditated almost every day since I made the decision to start again. It's taken me a while to get into a routine, but now I put Jesse to sleep and then meditate while I lie next to him. Sometimes I fall asleep at the end and am in bed for a whole hour, other times I get up after half an hour. This is much better than doing it in the middle of the morning when I'm impatient to be getting jobs done, and when I can only bear to lie still for fifteen minutes or less. I could probably achieve a deeper mediation if I wasn't in bed, and wasn't allowing myself to fall asleep, but this is working for me, it's sustainable, and it really does help me to relax so I'm gonna stick with this for now.
With my diet, I had become accustomed to eating huge servings, four or five meals a day, while I was breastfeeding round the clock. Breastfeeding also made me crave sweet and creamy foods and I decided to follow my body's request, figuring it would ask for what it needs. Now I'm only breastfeeding once a day, and I think all this food has made me put on weight - nature's way of making sure I have plenty of reserves for my babe. So - I'm now having more like three meals a day, much smaller portions, choosing lower fat options, putting less butter on my bread, and I've reduced my sugar intake too. I went for seven days without any sugar, a major record for me, and since then I've stopped putting honey routinely on my porridge or toast or in my drinks, am going some days with no sugar and some days when I have only one or sometimes two very small servings of it. And every now and then I lash out and get what I really love - a custard fruit tart or something. Yum. I haven't really seen any changes in my body as a result of the diet changes, but Paula is delighted - as the household cook there is so much less pressure on her to produce meal after meal. Making the change was harder for the first few weeks but since then it's been much easier than I expected, and has felt very worthwhile.