It's almost the end of the year.. this is what came of my goals for 2006:
- To be creative. I was very creative for the first seven months, churning out all sorts of projects, including making dolls, paper art things, patchwork quilts, bags for Jesse's toys, drawing and painting, making cards, and the biggest thing, making Bronwyn and her set. I loved this - it gave me the most amazing satisfaction and contentment, made my life feel really worthwhile. This great sense of meaning took a drop in August when I started training hard and couldn't keep up my output of creativity.
- To continue working on my nostalgia project. I didn't work on this at all. I was busy with other things, and it just didn't seem so important
- To be a warm, loving, attentive and present mother to Jesse. I feel I was a pretty good mama, overall, though far from perfect. Lack of energy was less of a problem this year than the past two years - this time he got less of my attention than he might because I wanted to do my own projects a lot of the time. Paula and I have recently instituted an arrangement where we take it in turns to have a day of responsibility with him. This is good because before my day on I prepare mentally and practically to be present with Jesse and to do some great activities with him. And on my day off I can often fill up on my own projects.
- To work on my relationship with Paula to improve our intimacy and connection and sense of team. Paula and I put effort into our relationship, enough to maintain it rather than improve it. We're still going fine, not super intimate or close but a reasonably good team most of the time. This could do with an upsurge of attention from both of us, but we both often prefer to do our own projects rather than pour our time and energy into each other, which could be a mistake. We do talk a lot and we have some beautiful moments so I think we're maintaining if not building.
- To eat well - wholegrains, unprocessed foods, nuts, green vegies, try including more pulses into my diet. I've eaten very well, reduced my sugar intake, and finally after years and years I've learnt to enjoy eating beans!
- Get some exercise. For the first half of the year I didn't do much exercise at all, this goal was dropping off the scene. Since August though it's been hard training all the way, and I feel better for it, physically. I enjoy my training. I find it hard though to find the time and energy to meet all my training goals, let alone have some left over for the rest of my life.
I think the major highlight for me this year was discovering marionettes in Panajachel, and then making my own and launching my show late this year. This has been a year-long project that has been intensely satisfying for me. Other highlights include the magical moments with Jesse when he learns something new, says something funny, or just snuggles into my arms for a cuddle, the discovery that creativity is the key to happiness in my soul, long chats with Paula on our couch, and rediscovering my joy for training.
The biggest challenge for me this year was being away from home for so long - six months of travel was too much. Three months would have been far more appropriate.