It's been forever since I've written. I got hit by burn out, and the first thing to go was blogging. When I started The Grimstones I pictured an act, a show that could work on stages in a theatre, on the street, at any festival I usually work at. And somehow it's grown so much larger. For me this is really exciting, a leg up into the world of theatre touring. But with every leg up comes an additional slug: admin. I was spending on average eight hours a day, just trying to keep up with the admin. Unfortunately my manager changed life-direction at the beginning of the year, so I've been going solo since then. She worked so hard and did so many of the hours at the computer that I didn't have to do. With her departure, I accepted I'd be spending a lot more time on the computer, but I couldn't have envisaged just how much! New opportunities mean I need to spend hours on graphic design for promo materials, write up quotes and tour agreements, nut out budgets and tech specs, script our next promo DVD and other excerpts we will make from the show. It's wonderful, exhilarating, exciting, and totally exhausting. All this happening at a time when my main priority has been to finish building the props and set, and rehearse rehearse rehearse the show, so it's ready for our launch at Northcote Town Hall this Saturday. I was spending five full days a week on rehearsals, prop building, and meetings, and then kicking in for an eight hour shift on the computer late into the night or from the stolen hours of the morning.
And then I just stopped. Couldn't do it any more. Paula, bless her, has picked up some of the slack. The to-do list on the computer mounts, but I'm restricted to two-three hours a day to deal with the most urgent jobs. And in between, I'm to have some "me" time. It's been so long that I didn't know what to do with myself. Over the past few weeks I've been to the pool a few times to swim laps, ridden my bike places, and then finally I found myself the perfect hobby - food fermenting. It seems the perfect thing to do in the evening when I daren't look to the computer, I'm too tired for anything creative and exciting, and too restless to sit still with a book or movie. Then something new happened. I spent one entire day without doing a single speck of work, and suddenly, I couldn't face it any more. Since then I've spent a fair bit of time lying on the couch with a book, watching movies, fermenting food, and then I force myself to go to rehearsal or do some prop repairs, and it's just unbearable. I'm truly counting the weeks, days, hours, until it's all over. If The Grimstones is like growing a baby, then the launch on 3rd May is the birth, and three weeks later, our performance at Showcase Victoria is like the placenta. And then - we're free!